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Rembering Brad:
On the Loss of a Son to AIDS

by

H. Wayne Schow
with Journal Entries by Brad Schow

Signature Books; Salt Lake City, Utah
© 1995 by Signature Books.


Table of Contents:

front cover
“How can I begin to relate the powerful emotions I felt while reading Remembering Brad? I especially appreciate the author’s combination of the sacred and secular, the emotional and intellectual. I, too, will remember Brad.” —Barbara J. Shaw, Executive Director, Utah AIDS Foundation

“This important book needs to be read twice: the first time slowly, savoring the powerful feelings and profound growth, then a second time aloud to as large an audience as you can find.”—Gerry Johnston, mother of a gay son; founder, People Who Care

“Remembering Brad caused me to recall my own struggle to reconcile my sexual orientation with my spirituality. More importantly, Schow relates the coming out process for parents, offering significant assistance for families trying to understand

and accept.” —Duane Jennings, Director, Wasatch Chapter, Affirmation: Gay & Lesbian Mormons

jacket flap

In the terms of cultural geography, it’s a long way from Los Angeles to Pocatello. This is the story of a young man who lived in West Hollywood, then returned to the Idaho environment in which he was born and raised—ironically to die of AIDS. It is unfortunately a story that is no longer uncommon.

Brad’s temperament challenged the scenarios normally planned for young men in rural America. His ambivalent views regarding his sexual orientation are evident in his diary. “I’ve been in one of my anti-homosexual moods again today,” he wrote. “Raging inside myself against the horrible anti-social sexual werewolves that we all are. Right? Like I said–what’s a boy to do? I have to confess, I don’t understand the whole thing.”

In writing about his son, H. Wayne Schow reveals his own journey of sorting things out. This is a biography not only of Brad but also of those whose lives he touched and a memorial to all like him who have felt ostracized, marginalized, or alone.

“I’m going to die soon,” Brad wrote on 5 September 1986. “Nothing to do about it. I miss Genesee Street in L.A. That was a cosmic point for me. It goes with me in my heart. I can’t describe it. Scott would know.”

About the author

H. Wayne Schow, whose son Brad died of AIDS in 1986, is co-editor of Peculiar People: Mormons and Same-Sex Orientation. His published essays include “Homosexuality, Mormon Doctrine, and Christianity” in Sunstone magazine. A Professor of English at Idaho State University, Schow also chairs the Department of English and Philosophy. His professional publications include a volume of translations, Against the Wind: Stories by Martin A. Hansen, and critiques of such writers as Isak Dinesen, Gűnter Grass, Joan Didion, and Ford Madox Ford. Schow lives in Pocatello, Idaho, with his wife Sandra. They are the parents of four sons.

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Dust jacket design by Clarkson Creative

Brad Schow title page

Remembering Brad:
On the Loss of a Son to AIDS

H. Wayne Schow
With Journal Entries by Brad Schow

Signature Books / Salt Lake City / 1995

copyright page

Dust jacket and frontispiece photo: Brad in New York, 1979
Dust Jacket design: Clarkson Creative

“Epilogue: The Great Western Cooperative” first appeared in Weber Studies 10 (Fall 1993), 3.

© 1995 by Signature Books. All rights reserved.

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Remembering Brad was composed, printed, and bound in the United States.
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Library of Congress Cataloging-in-Publication Data

Remembering Brad : on the loss of a son to AIDS / by H. Wayne Schow ; with journal entries by Brad Schow.
p. cm.
1. Schow, Brad–Health 2. AIDS (Disease)–Patients–United
States–Idaho–Biography. 3. Mormon gays–United States–Idaho–
Biography. I. Schow, Brad. II. Title.

ISBN 1-56085-070-1
RC607/A26S3739 1995 362.1'969792'0092–dc20 [B] 94-4031 CIP

dedication page

For Sandra
who walked this road with me.




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